What did you want to be?

How many of us actually do what we love for a living?

And how many of us actually planned to be where we are?

It started with the best intentions and some sort of a plan…


What do you do?

I work for a nonprofit where I educate the communities on Long Island on how to prevent diseases (like cancer), help women who have been diagnosed with breast cancer, and work with high school interns interested in science research.

I didn’t plan on being here. I wound up here. I always flip-flopped my ideas, and still do.


I studied history and sociology in college – after switching from physical therapy, and before that marine biology. The problem was, I liked everything. I wound up studying what I enjoyed learning about most, and following the professors I liked most. Which oddly seemed to be people. I was never one of the kids who was passionate about one particular thing.  Interestingly, I feel like everyone is expected to be the kid passionate about one thing, yet most are not.

My parents didn’t choose where they were either. My mom worked for a dental office and my dad for a copy machine company. Not what they chose, but where they wound up. My mom studied psychology, my dad engineering. But life happens!

Down the road, my mom wound up with a cancer diagnosis that took her life. That horrible experience (there is truly no way to describe in words how terrible) led me to work where I do. I wanted to help people. So now I work in a place where I can help prevent people and families from going through what we did. It’s rewarding, for sure, but it’s not without its stresses.

But there is another part of me that has had to deal with the feelings of it all – and it led me to write. I haven’t always had a passion for writing, but I have always had a passion for reading. I hope to write and publish novels one day! (Hopefully sooner rather than later)

Here’s a real picture of me writing:


I feel ridiculous, but I enjoy it. I will only get better as time goes on!

We are pressured at the age of 16 to figure out what we want in life but haven’t really experienced much. Or at least I didn’t. I have changed my mind so many times since then.

Yet my experiences have brought me back to my interests in a roundabout way – back to my family and back to books!



18 thoughts on “What did you want to be?

  1. My son has told me at the age of 12 what he wants to be already. I think it may change but if he really wants it, he will do it.
    I don’t think any of us end up doing exactly what we thought we would do. At least we are still going for it and getting to where we want to be in life.

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    1. When writing is your ultimate goal it’s definitely hard to get there! Just think of everything along the way as a step to get you there. As I’m discovering, it’s harder than most people think. It’ll be really rewarding though when you can look in the mirror and say ‘I’m a writer ‘ 🙂

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  2. The best thing we can do for ourselves is explore our options and take time to figure out what makes us happy. No need to rush.💖 —https://emilyryannblogblog.wordpress.com/2018/02/11/get-to-know-me-better/

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  3. I’m going to be 30 soon (ugh) and I’m still trying to figure out what the f*** I want to do. I went to school for culinary arts because I wanted to be a chef. The hours and physical demands are exhausting though, so I strayed away from that for a while. Then I got a psychology degree because I wanted to be a counselor. It required a lot more school and money than I had at the time, so I went back to culinary. I ran my own dessert company, where I was the pastry chef AND the business manager, for about 4 years. Now I am working in an office doing administrative stuff, trying to kill time until I publish some books. I still feel like my life has no direction.

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  4. I’m 21 and the exact same as you now. I tend to be passionate about a lot if different things and before I hated that because it made me feel like I didn’t have my shit together but now I appreciate that I am curious about the world and that being open to where life brings me is the best antidote to all that.

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  5. No matter where in the planet every one can relate to this post at some point or the other. I wanted to be a writer, read world history and yet I did engineering. Coz I was scared of what life has to offer if I won’t do what I am advised to do by people around.

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